First 10 songs

Anyone who knows me, knows I love music and I listen to a wide varity of tunes. Its not unheard of for my ipod to go from heavy metal to pop to punk rock to country all within the same playlist. I grew up appreciating all genres and Im all the better for it. My demon spawn has been raised the same way,yet they know what they love and can sing along from current hits as well as shit thats older then I am. Its my way of giving them culture. 

Its not perfect but I can only give away so much of my perfection for fucks sake. 😜

"Put your Ipod on Shuffle . First 10 songs that play"

1. Fuck you by Sleeping with Sirens
2. You're gonna go far kid by The offspring
3.Revenge by P!nk
4. The ABC's of.... by Lords of Acid (a HUGE fave)
5.Call me Maybe by Upon this Dawning
6. Whore By In This Moment (another HUGE fave)
7 Get it wet by Twista
8.Fuck yourself by Halsey
9. Apocalyptic by Halestorm
10. 7 years by Lucas Graham

6 Months

I know, OMG 2 posts in one day WTF?!?!?

But there was a good reason.....See 6 months ago this happened.....

A Wolf and his kitty

Then just a few months ago (in August to be exact) this happened....

Still a Wolf and his kitty

We have been happily together now for 6 months as of today. It feels like so much longer, but its because we are such a good match together. I would have never suspected it when I met him,but I am so glad things have become what they have. 

I cant help but look forward to our forever. He is my forever,my love and my Wolf.

I love you Herby.

Possessions

What is your most prized possession?

I have several possessions I would consider prized and a few that were,yet are only a memory now. I would have to say my crystal bells are still a rather loved and cherished set of items I have. As well as my collection of fandom items that I have gathered over time.


 Why do you value it?

The bells were originally my mom's and were something I would consistently play with when they were on her nick knack shelves in the kitchen.
My fandom merch I cherish because of my Dad. Its not so much what the items are or even the fandoms they represent, but collecting was something he did. In his case it was Nascar merch and he had me help him with it. So every time I add more to my fandom stuff I think of him.

 How did you come across it?

Well the collections started a few years ago with a few my little pony items,then Doctor Who stuff got added in,followed by Supernatural merch and various Comic/gamer stuff.
My bells were given to me when I lost my dad as he knew it was something my mom would have wanted me to have since she knew how much I loved them.

Catch up and a glimpse into my head

I haven't really been writing lately......no where near as much as I normally do. Im sure none of you have really missed it as my life hasn't had a ton of updates. I started my new job ,well the training for it anyway. Im a billing specialist (basically Im the one you talk to when you call in about your bill) for Charter/spectrum. It has a lot of benefits that make getting yelled at sometimes from customers worth it. Its a lot of adulting for me,which may have had a small wall I hit when it came time to setting up my benefits.....I may have yelled for Herby and said "fix it,Im done adulting"

With that being said, I think Im gonna do a non adulting blog for a bit. Just some random topics and what not which as always Im open to suggestions or anything you want me to discuss, just shoot me a message.

Lets begin shall we? Today's topic :

Songs I listen to when I am:

• Happy - True love by P!nk, Look what you made me do by Taylor swift, In the air tonight (cover) in this moment, sex metal barbie by in this moment
• Sad - remember everything by FFDP,Had Enough by Breaking Benjamin,Rain By Breaking Benjamin, Snuff by Slipknot, Hate Me by Blue October, Through the Glass by Stone Sour
• Bored -Truthfully I have an entire playlist of various songs I listen to when Im bored.The list includes a little from every possible genre so its often been referred to as being bipolar.
• Hyped - Sorry not Sorry by Demi Lovato, New Rules by Dua Lipa,Whore by in this moment, Sick Like me by in this moment, The fighter by in this moment,apocalyptic by Halestorm,I will not bow by Breaking Benjamin
• Mad - The Thunder Rolls(cover)by all that remains, Big Bad Wolf by in this moment, Jekyll and Hyde by FFDP, War is the answer by FFDP,Boots and Blood by FFDP

That being said this is NOT an exhausted or complete list,its merely a small glimpse into my head as I build play lists. 

<3

Life as I know it

Life isn't easy,anyone who says it is is trying to sell you something.

However it is up to you to make your life happy. Ive worked hard on this. Its still not perfect but its getting there. I start work on Monday (my birthday!!) ,which i am a bit nervous about. Its a new situation and we all know I'm not the best with new situations.

Its been almost 6 months with Herby now and almost 2 months since Ive been here. In that small amount of time Ive managed to find a job ,take some life skills classes,make a few rl friends and Ive even begun to debate on going back to school as well. I have had a few struggles with depression and feeling worthless but Herby has been a very patient godsend in regards to that.I do think he feels a bit helpless as he cant do much for me but hes trying as best he can.

Ive found I don't do much for myself,so I am about to change that for the first time ever. I bought myself a laptop that I wanted ,after a ton of research into best for what I wanted. This week I will be doing a bit of self care before I start the new job. I got a hair cut,color and treatment package for an amazing price. I'm going on my day off class and will be taking care of me for once.Its something I need to do for me.

If I do choose to go back to school I have to probably go part time since I have to work to afford a place for me and the girls. Either that or go online.I dunno I guess we will just have to see.I may start this job and fall in love with it.

Beyond happy

So I've been here with Herby for 2 weeks now and I'm still beyond happy. This is honestly the best choice I could have ever made. The girls are so much happier,were safe and I finally feel that sense of home that's been missing ever since I left Chicago all those years ago. Herby is amazing and I'm a lucky girl to have ever caught his attention, all though I still think he could do better.
I'm still working on finding a job and an apartment for the girls and I,but I keep being told to be patient.

Today is Herby's birthday. I get to celebrate it with him and I'm excited about that. Even if he is a pain in the butt and won't tell me what he wants lol

Tomorrow I leave

By this time tomorrow I will have already been on the road for several hours.

To say I'm nervous is an understatement. I'm terrified. Not really for what I'm doing or even who I am doing this with but more so of the prospect of all that could go wrong.I know I don't need to worry or stress, I have an amazing support system but I cant help it. I have high functioning anxiety plus (despite arguments to the contrary) this is really my first time being an adult. I'm nervous and I'm scared,yet I'm excited too.

Here's to a safe trip where memories will be made and new beginnings started.