Story time

Gather around kids, Im gonna share a little story.

In 1996, there was an adorable blonde girl who agreed to take a chance on her best friend , allowing their relationship to go to the next level. They began dating.Not always with the most support due to antiquated ideas on interracial  relationships, but they still drove on.

It wasn't long before within that relationship, things progressed,they grew closer and then missed a step in precautions. The tests came back positive. She was terrified to tell her family but ultimately it had to be done. Naturally there was anger,disappointment, but there was support as well.  See she was only a kid still, nowhere near ready to become a parent while still a child herself.

The choice was made for her essentially and then the appointment made.

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That girl was me.
I was 15 when I got pregnant the first time.
I was 15 when I had an abortion.

It wasn't an easy choice,but it was the right one. I wasn't ready,he for damn sure wasn't ( hell he still wasn't when i had my oldest, and im not sure hes ever grown up in all honesty) .
Having an abortion was not an easy choice, nor was it one made without a ton of soul searching.
I knew the likelihood of me being able to properly take care of a baby when i was 15 was  literally less then zero.  I went into that office crying and scared. I was in the back alone and wishing my mom was with me. I walked out feeling empty, like something was missing from within my soul ,broken and hurting.

It was hard. But i was able to do this legally and safely. Not bringing another child into the world, forcing it into an overcrowded foster system,allowing it to feel unwanted or unloved.

Instead I assumed the hurt and pain so that child would never have to. 

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Yet now the ability to make that choice is being stripped from women.
Its our bodies. Its our choices.
Stop trying to take control of whats not yours.

So its finally happened

We did it. Two weeks ago I married my love. We chose to do it as we celebrated our 2nd anniversary. It was a small,intimate gathering but one we wouldn't change for anything. It was perfect for us. We had those we loved with us. We were even lucky enough to get the weather to hold out until everything was all done! 

Now that its all over, i think its time to get back into writing some. Im not sure if im gonna going back into writing fiction , just blogs or maybe a little of both. I know that I miss the creativity of it as well as the venting ability. 

So with that being said, heres to the upcoming  narratives.

quick update

Its been forever since Ive posted here, but Ive been busy! Planning a wedding, moving, working, handling life with teenagers.....
Its been hectic to say the least. I am still around though,despite the hopes of some.

As you can see, we got our engagement pictures back. They are gorgeous!

We're now only a few months away from the wedding. Its coming up fast! So much still to do , but we're getting it done.

Just thought I would go ahead and update since I hadnt in awhile.
<3

so its official

We made the announcement, it is official.

30 day Catch up day 15 on

Day 15~I dont know that i have an exact Age, I do know I range from around 6 or so til teens

Day 16~ I dont really have a blankie per say but my leopard print blanket is my most fave one

day 17~Earlier today at work, it was Harley, Joker and Lex luthor

Day 18~I love autumn. Its cooler,so many pretty colors and shorter days

Day 19~Merida

Day 20 ~Other then clowns, my biggest fear is disappointing my Daddy or him not loving me anymore

Day 21~Not anymore. I have to be big sometimes when im at work but even then my little side creeps out with coloring and stuff

Day 22~Lavender

Day 23~my Binkie that Daddy got me.....ITs a kitty binkie

30 days ~day 14

Day 14~I dont really have a fave little space drink Although I think If I had to choose one I would say a chocolate milkshake

30 days~days 11,12 and 13

Sorry i havent been doing this daily like im supposed to, I keep getting busy and by the time i get home....im tired

Day 11~ No I dont have any pets anymore. My ex kept my doggie ,char char binks. I do help Daddy take care of his momma's dog though.

Day 12~Well, I am a kitty after all.Just ask Daddy

Day 13~Given what happens this week I think I know EXACTLY who I wanna talk about. Even the simple thought of him makes me smile . I try to do everything I can to make him proud to be who he is to me. I know that Ive had boyfriends and girlfriends over the course of my life, some of those realtionships were rather serious even,but something was always missing.I was drawn to him from the first time I met him in world when we discussed the tattoos I wore,then he ended up becoming an employee for me.Eventually he became a friend,then so much more. Hes my love, my wolf, my future,the piece that was missing from my world. Hes my Herby. <3