An update on life that isnt part of the damned writing challenge (that is now over btw ya shitheads)

Well those 10 days went by rather rapidly without any real complaints so I suppose I should actually write for once huh?

Alot of shit has changed over the last year.Katie passed a few weeks ago now and that wasnt easy. Yes she was old(12) and we knew it would happen eventually but that doesnt make it any easier.To say its was an emotional and slightly traumatic event would be putting it mildly.Add to that Katie being the last living thing that connected all of us to Charity and well.....

We got to keep the house tentatively for another year,though we are still gonna be looking for a different place and saving up.It was a tense and truthfully terrifying few weeks but in the end it worked out. Day after we resigned the lease,the house and cars got egged. John called the landlord who then called the kid who did its Father ( we knew who did it only cuz of the eggs used....they were fresh brown eggs and only one person has brown chickens in the area) . Long story short, The kid and his friend who did it had to scrub both cars,the roof,the house and the driveway while the landlord and John videotaped and took pics.....With the kids dads permission. He told them put that shit on youtube and facebook,maybe then they would learn a damn lesson. John and the dad talked for quite some time after that in general and its seemed to have made at least one half of the neighborhood a bit more peaceful.

There is a new addition to the house as well in the form of a pup named Charcoal (char for short). She is spoiled,silly,smart and a bit annoying. She fits in perfectly.

Im sure there is more,but honestly If I wrote it all out now,then WTF would I have to talk about later???

Oh and there is this girl.....She apprently loves to read these things of mine....Shes all kinds of epically awesome .....I think Im gonna have to work out a plan soon enough to kidnap her. ;)

Writing Challenge Day 10

Day Ten: One confession.



Im not gonna lie.....This is the one I was dreading the most. I keep my secrets rather close and dont share them with most simply cuz I know how people are. With that being said,I agreed to follow the challenge so.....

1. I used to have an eating disorder. You know those shirts you see on plus size people that jokingly say " I beat anorexia" ? I actually did.....I was anorexic from the age of 15 until I was 17. I was 115 on a 5'6 big boned frame. I looked deathly ill.When my sister actually saw me for the first time after 2 months of me living on the street (thats a whole other story) ,she cried. Her first words to me were " Are you sick?"  She thought something was wrong with me.....The thought that I had stopped eating never crossed her mind (Cuz I love food .....I was in Chicago....Best food evar!) and wouldnt ever cross her mind. Someone built like me at 115 lbs looks like they have cancer and are in the end stages.... Its not pretty at all. I moved in with her a few days later and still didnt eat. Then I started eating again..... I was survive on spicy nacho doritos and pepsi....It went on that way for almost 2 years. Then I found out about Kyle.I struggled to eat still in the beginning,thought mostly cuz it wouldnt stay down. Then I woke up late one night and well basically thought I miscarried. So I fell back into bad habits out of depression. It went on that way for a couple months,but my period never came back so I took another test. I was still pregnant. At that point I confessed to my sister and my dad I was and my dad immediately took me to have an ultrasound. They did the US and found him in there moving around and being an ass (not much has changed really) then ran a few other tests and found he was a survivor basically. I was pregnant with twins and lost one (so partial miscarriage). I was determined from that point on to take care of him so I began to eat healthy and normal....and I gained weight. The day  I had him I was 180 lbs. which was only slightly above where I should have been. I still struggle with food. I honestly forget to eat alot and have a love/hate relationship with most things. But I can honestly say I beat anorexia,now if I could only actually loose this weight.

writing challenge day 9

Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.

1. i feel loving yet silly......Its how i am with those i love
2. just yup. Ive had to come to that realization lately and while it sucks,its the best thing for me

Day Ten: One confession.

Writing challenge day 8

Day Eight: Three turn-ons.

1. Biting/sucking my neck
2. Soft ,loving touches
3. Intelligence

Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.

Day Ten: One confession.

Writing challenge day 7

Day Seven: Four turn-offs.

1. attitude
2. greed
3. lack of personal care
4. ignorance

Day Eight: Three turn-ons.

Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.

Day Ten: One confession.

Day 6 Writing Challenge

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).

1. John
2. Amy
3. The kids (yes Im counting them all as one)
4. The very few friends whom I am close to
5. The people who make/grow/bring me foods of tasty types......(Im a fluffy ass yo)

Day Seven: Four turn-offs.

Day Eight: Three turn-ons.

Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.

Day Ten: One confession.

Writing Challenge Day 5 (Make up from yesterday since I missed it do to being busy)

Day Five: Six things you wish you had never done.

1. I wish I had never  gotten Married at 17 to the ex husband
2. I wish I did not miss all the high school experiences I should have
3. I wish I didnt believe everything that the ex or my sister ever told me
4. I wish I didnt give asshole so many chances 
5. I wish I had never chosen that stupid house in Grafton.
6. I wish I had never given my self so many scars......Internal and external.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).

Day Seven: Four turn-offs.

Day Eight: Three turn-ons.

Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.

Day Ten: One confession.

Writing Challenge Day 4

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

1. Am i failing the kids?
2. Is J really happy ?
3. Why cant I just be happy?
4. Why cant I drop this damn weight?!?!
5. Will we ever be completely stable financially?
6. Why cant K just disappear? I mean planes do it...why cant he!??!
7. I need more places for my ponies....              

Day Five: Six things you wish you had never done.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).

Day Seven: Four turn-offs.

Day Eight: Three turn-ons.

Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.

Day Ten: One confession.

Day 3 writing challenge

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

1. be patient with me
2. talk to me,I crave honesty and need attention
3. cuddles! lots and lots of cuddles
4. make me feel beautiful
5. My little pony,Merida,or anything Irish/Scottish 
6. Good food ,even better if you make it for me.
7. take care of me when I need it.
8. be silly with me

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Day Five: Six things you wish you had never done.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).

Day Seven: Four turn-offs.

Day Eight: Three turn-ons.

Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.

Day Ten: One confession.

Writing Challenge Day2

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

1. I hate myself more then anyone else could ever hate me
2. I have no friends who I feel I am very close to,yet several who claim to love me
3. I dont understand why anyone would love me
4. I am neurotic but try to hide it
5. I am bipolar but rarely have the manic highs. I am almost always in a state of depression
6. I am a little. Im not sure if this is do to lack of childhood or if its another part of my twisted mind being even more needy
7. I am a survivor,though I still deal with nightmares and PTSD from it.
8. I attempted suicide about 4 years ago and had a problem with self injury from the age of 13 until about 9 years ago
9. I am polyamorus and pansexual but find myself only sexually open and attracted to women. 
10. Ive always wanted a large family. I would love more kids but can not have them myself.

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Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Day Five: Six things you wish you had never done.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).

Day Seven: Four turn-offs.

Day Eight: Three turn-ons.

Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.

Day Ten: One confession.

10 Day writing challenge:Day 1

So I decided to get back into the swing of writing again,Im gonna do a 10 day challenge......So without further ado....Day 1

THE TEN-DAY WRITING CHALLENGE:

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

1. I love you
2. I miss you
3. I wish things went a different way but it is what it is
4. I love everything about you,so Im kinda waiting for the other shoe to drop
5. I really cant stand you and want to throat punch/cunt punt you on a daily basis
6. I love you to death I just wish we could be closer then we are. We have moments of it,then it fades away
7. I want your approval more then I really should actually give a damn about.
8. I wish you lived closer!!!
9. It amazes me how much time has changed us and the relationship we have.
10. you are a huge dork but thats what makes you awesome :D                  ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Day Five: Six things you wish you had never done.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).

Day Seven: Four turn-offs.

Day Eight: Three turn-ons.

Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.

Day Ten: One confession.