Its been awhile

My fears almost always are well placed.

I have court in a couple hours.....Modification of child support and an attempt to take my son from me. He had the papers for this and the accusations that my son claimed he wanted to live with him drawn up on June 26th. Conveniently the same day I wrote about my fears of them going up there.They weren't filed until about a month later,hence then September court date.He hasn't spoken to the kids in forever ,removed them from face book and hasn't paid child support since April......admits to not being employed but wants custody of my son while ending child support for the girls. Seriously....let that one sink in for a minute. Luckily for me,I think the judge has done an overview on the case and already sees through his bull. She gave me permission to participate by phone,and he has no idea.

And because when life goes screwy for me,it does it huge....

I have to have a hysterectomy soon. I go the 19th to schedule it and then go under the knife shortly after that. Ive also got an MRI scheduled for my back so we know wtf is going on there and just how much damage my first marriage did to me physically. There is a possibility for surgery there too,but we don't know anything for certain until the MRI happens. Really huge down side? Its a closed MRI. I'm not so good with confined spaces.Ill also have to start physical therapy soon. again,pending results of the MRI.

The dreams are happening again too.....and still really accurate as shown by the call I got last week.Me going for a run (voluntarily none the less) with my brother who's on the other side of the country......Then being woke up my Tequila playing on my phone.(his ring tone when he texts me). Then he calls me and we talk for a bit. Some news shared between us,some of which isn't my place to talk about at the moment. Alot of laughs shared,cuz that how we both react to stressful shit.And I haven't gotten a phone call from him since,so I'm holding on to the old saying of no news is good news. I still stand by him needing to bring his ass out here to visit me though.

:)

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