I love having the kids home.Its been entirely too silent in this house without them being here.

On the other hand,its been a year almost. I can honestly say Ive fallen "off the wagon" as far as being a full time mommy. It's something Ive got to get back into the swing of things with. Shouldn't be too hard I would imagine,I mean Ive done it for a little while now ,its just when you aren't having to do it everyday for almost a year a person gets out of practice I guess.

I am about to admit something that I never admit to. I'm scared. I'm terrified even. I'm scared of failing them or not being good enough any more.

someone worth dying for